Week 8: The Insurance Blues

 

I'm struggling a little with positivity about this pregnancy this week. I have a bunch of medications to sustain this pregnancy for a few more weeks, and of course- one of them is a $1,600+ refill. My other option is to move to a different form of the medication (all injectable). So now, I'm getting nightly injections in my butt cheeks for $250 bucks instead. It is wild to think "oh man, I hope this baby is born early, like Frankie, so that we have the before the medical calendar year is over. I've already met my deductible!" This shouldn't be a reality of a developed country... but here we are. The medications will last until I'm 10 weeks pregnant, so I keep reminding myself I've got two weeks. I can do it! 

In better news, we got to see the baby wiggling around again. Heart rate was perfect at 170 and we could see arms and legs even! This ultrasound really helped me move past the denial phase and see that there was definitely a little one inch baby rolling around in there. We have officially graduated from our fertility clinic and have moved on the "general population". With that in mind, we decided to go public with our pregnancy on social media, too. Again, early... just like last time. But I'm trusting my body and our community. I'm pregnant. No need to keep going with fear and doubt.

How far along? 8 weeks
Maternity clothes? Absolutely. The bump no longer "goes away" overnight. Its here to stay now.
Stretch marks? Hoping to be just as lucky this pregnancy....
Ankle Watch: Normal!
Sleep: The dogs + my bladder have me up at all random hours.
Best moment(s) this week: Seeing the baby again and "graduating" from our fertility clinic for the LAST time!
Miss Anything? Being able to clean or help parent, basically... being helpful.
Movement: Not yet!
Food cravings: I have eaten two packages of apple toaster strudels in 72 hours. I remember this feeling from last pregnancy. I can only stomach ONE thing... and if I don't have that one thing, I'm sick eating anything else. The last day this week it was Crunchwraps from Taco Bell
Anything making you queasy or sick: Afternoons. By then, the medication has worn off and I am in barf-town. I threw up in the Sam's frozen foods aisle this weekend, which was mortifying.
Gender: I honestly think its another girl.
Labor Signs: No
Pregnancy Symptoms: Nausea, exhaustion, stuffy/sneezy nose. Cramps have made their appearance again this week, which is terrifying... but I try to remember the baby is growing like crazy, my body is just trying to accommodate them. 
Belly Button in or out? In
Rings on or off? On, but tight. Its hot this week.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody.... I'm frustrated with medications and I'm so sick/tired.  
Looking forward to: I have a bunch of things planned for Daniel's birthday and father's day this month. We are so excited to spend some time with friends this summer now that the pandemic has passed and the weather is warm!