Week 6: Parenting While Horizontal

 

WHAT A WEEK. I cannot remember being so tired or sick that I couldn't function with Frankie's pregnancy. Maybe its because I had free time to lay around as much as I wanted last time, but the guilt of not physically being able to parent or clean is SO real this pregnancy. I slept most of every day this weekend, and was really no help at all with Frankie. I am grateful that this is slow season at work and that I am able to nap during lunch breaks. I feel terrible about it. Daniel deserves all of the hugs, high fives, and kisses for basically taking over parenting 100% for the last several days.

How far along? 6 weeks

Maternity clothes? Do you SEE that crazy bump? Maternity leggings are my best friends. The bloating has receded, but any clothing that puts pressure on my stomach makes me sick.

Stretch marks? No

Ankle Watch: Normal, but still with funny tan lines from last week.

Sleep: Lots of it, but not of good quality. Weird dreams and I can't get comfy!

Best moment(s) this week: Seeing this little baby for the first time!

Miss Anything? Motivation

Movement: No

Food cravings: Red sauce. I know I have to eat it on pizza or pasta for the sake of human decency, but  could really just drink the stuff. 

Anything making you queasy or sick: Life in general.

Gender: Its hard to imagine someone making me feel so awful is actually a human and not an evil demon.

Labor Signs: No

Pregnancy Symptoms: Less bloating, but way more exhaustion and nausea. Also, any time I'm awake, I'm cold. I don't know what that means, but I'm grateful for my heated blanket.

Belly Button in or out? In

Rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Trying SO hard to be happy, but.... having to live horizontally is not making it easy.   
Looking forward to: The Halls are visiting us this holiday weekend and I am SO EXCITED! Since we moved (and hell, since the pandemic), our quality time with them has been so few and far between. I'm so excited to take time off with them and with Daniel. Frankie, Harper, and Harrison will hopefully have a blast!

On Tuesday, we had our very first ultrasound. With the way I've been feeling, I was very worried I'd end up seeing two babies on the screen- but no. Just the one little squiggle, not even a centimeter long. His/her heart rate looked great at 116 bpm. A few quick measurements and our next appointment is scheduled for two weeks away. Another ultrasound AND graduation into "general population". I also got a prescription for the nausea/vomiting but... of course... my insurance doesn't cover it. I'll use up the samples the office gave me and then hope for the best!

The anxiety of affording another kiddo and all these meds and life in general has caused a lot of anxiety this week. One of my medication refills was $1,700 alone. We've been trying hard to get ourselves out of debt, so all of these extra costs I didn't have last time are really adding up. I know we will get through it, but its very hard to feel happy or excited. 

It will work out. This baby just needs us.